I fell.
Yes, I laid down my
baggage.
And I placed my eyes firmly
on Him.
I forgot about the world…for a while…
but I could still hear them calling me
to
meet THEIR demands
to
fulfill THEIR requirements
to reach THEIR goals.
And then my eyes slipped…
Down…
Down…
Down…
until I was no longer looking at Him at all.
I was looking…
at the world – again.
Looking…
at myself
– again…
Inept
Hopeless
Inadequate
But I
couldn’t let THEM see me.
Not like
that.
Not the
REAL me.
So I climbed on a pedestal –
A pedestal of perfection.
BUT…
I fell.
And it hurt…
It hurt
my pride.
It hurt
my witness.
It
hurt the people around me.
The
people I love.
The people I care about.
BUT…most importantly
It hurt God.
When
I
fell.
I couldn’t let Him find
me like that.
So I retrieved my baggage of perfection…
Complete
with my collection of intricate masks
and master disguises …
And
held it close to my chest
Like a child clutching a security
blanket
And
hiding . . .
In
fear
In guilt
In
shame.
Until He called to me…
MY CHILD,
WHERE ARE YOU?
I fell again.
YOU ARE
MY MASTERPIECE.
I am unworthy.
YOU ARE MY
CHILD!
But, Lord, Remember when
I -
NO, DO
YOU REMEMBER I DIED FOR YOU?
But I took my eyes off
of you.
SEE MY
SCARS?
See my sin?
MY
GRACE FORGIVES.
But I failed you!
MY
GRACE FORGETS.
And I keep failing you.
MY CHILD,
MY GRACE IS REFINING YOU.
IN THE KNOWLEDGE OF MY
WORD
IN THE WISDOM OF MY WAYS
SO THAT SOME DAY YOU MAY
BE MATURE AND COMPLETE
SOME DAY YOU WILL BE PERFECT IN MY IMAGE
BUT YOU WILL NEVER BE
PERFECT IN THE IMAGE OF THE WORLD.
Help me, Lord,
I do not want to walk with the world.
I do not want to listen to their poisonous promises.
I do not want to trust their deceptive
disguises.
Help
me, Lord,
To trade this endless cycle of worldly perfection
For a cycle of spiritual
maturity
to be transformed
day by day
minute by minute
hour by hour
decision by decision
into
Your image.
So I give You
my weaknesses
And my
masks
And my
disguises
And I CLIMB onto Your lap
To rest
in Your grace.
To trust
in Your grace.
To grow
in Your grace.
To become a pleasing sacrifice
Transformed
Wholly and acceptable unto You.
~by Robin Kelley
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